My give a damn is BUSTED!!

It's been a while since I've posted a good long blog, so be prepared because this is a bitch-fest and some over due venting!!
I'm serious my give a damn is BUSTED when it comes to certain people!! You know I've been done dirty by people ALL my life and I'm at the age to where i don't even care anymore!! All i need in my life are my kids and husband!!
It's amazing how people LOVE to tell your business!! I had someone telling my business yesterday morning and i was asleep and didn't even know the business they was telling! It mad me VERY MAD that other people knew my business and what was going on before i did!! Then this person wants to act stupid and tell me lies, like she ALWAYS does!! She was like, i didn't do anything, then after she realized that i knew better, she says, well it slipped up! BULLSHIT, I know better! This isn't the first time she has told my business and done me like that! That's why I don't tell her shit anymore, unless I do want it told!! She ALWAYS likes to tell other people's business and lies!! Most of the time she gets the story twisted all around or adds to it! I'm NOT someone you need to lie to, I would rather you tell me the truth! I don't care if it hurts my feelings, just tell me the TRUTH!! Then this morning when I got up I had a message on my answering machine for me to get up and call her, she had some good juicy gossip that she wanted to talk about! She knew better cause last night, she wanted to try and argue in emails back and forth on myspace and call here back to back and leave 10 minute messages on my answering machine! She keep on doing this, i told her numerous of times to STOP calling here cause I wasn't gonna answer it, I had NOTHING to say to her!! I also told her I didn't think I would or could forgive her for this cause again, this isn't the first time she has told my business and done me dirty!! Later on today, she sent me another email, trying to talk shit to me and say funky things to me! She says that I have no friends, I have plenty of friends, she says I've changed, I told her yea, your right I have changed, I don't let people run over me anymore! She says my husband doesn't like me and that's why he stays gone till bedtime, NO he's at work every night and he comes in at different times, he's out working and getting overtime, so he can provide for his family and we can have things! She says my sister don't talk to me cause I'm just me, but I hate to bust her bubble, my one sister DOES talk to me, but we don't talk everyday cause she's busy working, taking care of her kids, and has a family to take care of! As far as my other sister, I'm the one that decided NOT to talk to her because of the way she done my daddy!! Then she says, the one friend I do have (which I have more than one friend) I talk to all the time, she says I might be screwing my friend, (mind you all she's admitted to me before that she is VERY JEALOUS of this particular friend) like I told her, the so called one friend happens to be my best friend and she's jealous of her and it's NONE OF HER BUSINESS what I do!! To make a REALLY long story short, every time things don't go her way, she wants to cuss me, say funky things to me, and act like no one likes me!! Which is BULLSHIT!! She calls herself trying to threatening me, her exact words was "i ain't done with you yet", let me just gone on and tell ya, when she says these things, she's saying she's gonna call Ickey and tell him I'm cheating on him, which I'm not, hell I don't go anywhere, if i do go somewhere it's to the Dr, to my sis-n-law's, or to the store) I'm in this house ALL day long! He knows that!! She's gonna call whoever she can and try to get some shit started between me and that person, like I told her, go ahead call whoever you want and tell them whatever you want cause I don't care!! She LOVES to cause DRAMA for me!! Then she says "You'll need me before I ever need you", ahahahahahaha I don't need her for a damn thing!! She's being like this cause I got mad at her for telling my business, like I told her I'M SO DONE WITH YOU, YOU HAVE DONE ME WRONG AND DIRTY FOR THE LAST TIME!! For those of you that know who I'm talking about, I MEAN IT THIS TIME!!
Moving on to another person, this person lies to me all the time, she hurts my feelings all the time!! She makes promises that she can't keep!! I needed this person really bad cause I needed someone to talk to and get all the stuff off my chest with the first person and she can't even be here for me, but yet she is there for everybody else when they need her!! I'm sick and tired of this person lying to me and hurting my feelings, it seems as if she's doing it more and more everyday!! It seems like she lies to me and hurts my feelings everyday and I can't take much more of it!! I'm there for her when she needs someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, but I can't even get that! Let me tell you what happened, I called this person earlier today and ask her was she gonna come over, she tells me yes, she'll be over here in a little while, well she NEVER showed up! Me and the kids had to go to Springfield to pay a bill, so I call her and ask her to do something for me on the computer, well I ask her why she didn't come over, she tells me cause her daughter has company and her company's parents doesn't like for the little girl to go anywhere, I say, but she's with you, so that shouldn't matter!! I understand that people doesn't like their kids going to other people's house that they don't know, but if their with an adult and you trust that adult, then I don't see a problem!! Anyways, I tried calling this person like 10 times after me and the kids get back home and we get our baths! I keep getting her voicemail, it never even rang, so that let me know her phone was turned off, the first few times I called I thought I was getting the voicemail because someone else was calling or she had both lines tied up, but that wasn't it! I decided to call her husband to ask him if he would ask her to call me or ask her if she would get on the computer to talk to me, if her phone was dead, he tells me that's SHE'S NOT HOME!! Are you serious? This is the same person that told me she couldn't come over because her daughter had company and her parents didn't like her going to other people's house!! I was PISSED AND HURT!! More hurt than pissed!!! She just flat out lied to me!! That's what PISSED me off and the fact that I needed her really bad cause I really needed a friend to talk to and she was gone and lied to me, is what HURT MY FEELINGS!!
I don't understand why she lied to me. I have told her before, numerous of times, all you have to do is tell me the truth, it's gonna piss me off and hurt my feelings more when I find out that you've lied to me!! This person is suppose to be a REALLY good friend of mine, but I'm beginning to wonder cause it seems like all she does is lie to me and then when I ask her why she lied to me, she makes up some bullshit ass excuse! OK, like yesterday, she PROMISED my kids, she was gonna bring her kids over to play with my kids and she didn't, so last night when I talked to her, I ask her why she lied to my kids, she tells me that she had some family members to come over, so I tell her OK, but all you had to do was pick up the phone call and say "hey we can't come, some of my family showed up and we're gonna visit them"! She also said she didn't come over cause her daughter has strep throat, which I didn't have a problem with that cause I can't afford for me or my kids to be sick!! My thing is this, if your daughter has the strep throat then WHY are you letting another kid spend the night?!?! Makes NO SENSE to me at all!!
I'm just sick and tired of people lying to me, telling my business, back stabbing me, and being 2 faced. I could go on all night long about what I'm sick of when it comes to certain people, but I'm not!!
I feel like I'm a damn good friend, I'm always there for people when they need to talk, need a shoulder to cry on, and some more stuff and this is the thanks I get from these 2!! It REALLY does bother and hurt me that they would do me like that!! I'm ready to just give up and be alone, just be with my hubby and my kids, that way I don't have to worry about getting my feelings hurt or being lied too!!
Well, I'm sorry I'm sure I've bored everyone to death with my LONG story, but I had to get it off my chest, since I can't get no one else to be there for me!! I think from now on when I need someone to talk to, so I can get things off my chest, I'll just talk to my blog..lol
I hope everyone has a better night than I'm having and i hope you all have a GREAT weekend!!
Chunky Butt :0}